THE REAL HEALING RECIPE THAT NO ONE EVER TELLS YOU

Story By Whitney Healing

5 words. Well 6. – Awkwardness. Social Anxiety. Stress. Depression. Nervousness.

 Have you ever experienced it? Have you ever been bullied because of it? Have you ever felt like there was no end? Well, there is, but you are certainly not alone in this feeling. Many people around the world deal with anxiety, depression, grief, low-self-esteem & bullying everyday but it feels like all of this pressure is on you. Together, we rise & heal above all of our limiting beliefs.

As a young child, maybe age 4, I had a bit of anxiety. Most called it “shyness” back then. I thought it was pretty normal. Not really. I didn’t really like to be the center of attention anyway. But wheewww it surely escalated in high school. The nervousness certainly intensified. The awkwardness was beyond the limit. And my goodness, the bullying, the taunting & the low self-esteem was definitely the icing on the cake.

I felt fight-or-flight in all social settings. I had the most nervous twitches. I could barely say a couple of words without stuttering sometimes. All of this alone caused so much depression. Oh the depression.

Add in the outside noise.
I felt the laughs as I walked in a room. I felt the stares. I felt my heart drop. I felt the words.
“She is so weird.”
“What the f*ck is wrong with her?”
“She is ugly.”
“Is she slow?”
“She sounds retarded.”

On top of all of this, I didn’t have many friends. My so-called best friend was making new friends & pretty much left me most of the time. I was left alone. I didn’t really realize it then though. So yeah, female friends – 0.

Oh we cannot forget to add the other “amazing” ingredients to my “What is Life” recipe.

1 Cup of Only Child Syndrome (My parents didn’t really get what I was going through. Church was top priority)
10 Extra Cups of Awkwardness (Pretty self-explanatory)
10 Cups of Jabs & Toxins (If you know, you know. If you don’t, you just don’t. Just know that the system is bamboozled)  
8 Cups of Being a People Pleaser at Home & School (I was pretty much a “Yes” girl. I didn’t really have a voice)
15 Tablespoons of Trash Dieting (Cheese was my favorite food growing up – enough said)
5 Cups of Body Insecurity (I was literally one of the tallest & skinniest girls in my school)

All of this may not have been as extreme as I had pictured it in my young head. But as a teenager, I felt everything. I felt every single thing. Blame it on the haywire hormones. Blame it on life. Regardless, I felt every bit.

Life Goes On

Although all of this resumed a bit through college, I pushed through it all. It wasn’t an easy dance. I graduated high school in the top 10 of my class. My “figure” started to come in. I had boys that liked me, finally. I joined a sorority. I was in an honors program. I graduated college with Summa Cum Laude Honors.

Blah Blah Blah.

Although this sounds impressive, I was still going through the bullying & depression. So honestly, all of this really didn’t matter that much to me. But as I moved through life, I started to see things through different lenses & perspectives. I started to have more empathy for myself. I started to pick myself back up. I started to accept the changes of my life. I started to accept that I cannot control how others viewed me. I finally started to forgive myself for all of the trauma that I went through. I started to forgive myself for all of the unnecessary stress I caused my own damn self. That took YEARS of processing.

Here & Now: Healing

Fast forward to now, I am truly thankful for all of the growth & life experiences I went through.

Every single one.

It is what molded me into the wonderful, empathetic individual I am today. I am able to feel how others feel. I am able to relate to others on their journeys without judgement. I am able to see through the shiny clothes, happy-face masks & armor that we as humans put on everyday to hide the lowness within. I am able to help move & promote love & light. I am able to speak positivity & happiness into others.
Why?

Because I have been through trauma.
I have been through bullying.
I have been through loneliness.
I have been through struggles.
I have been through pain.
I have been through severe anxiety.

I have been through depression.
I have been through stress.
I have been through nervousness.
I have been through all of this. 

Even through every single piece of hardship, I didn’t give up. You haven’t either.

We are still here today. We may have bumps in the roads. And sometimes we may feel inadequate or feel that life just isn’t fair but we stand. We live. We make progress. Some days, slower than others but progress is progress.

We are here to show the world that life isn’t perfect but we can still move on. We can still bring beauty into the world with our stories, our gifts & our talents. Although life isn’t always a straight stretch, we can still survive & make every twist & turn magical. We can bring love, life & light to issues that affected us before that we are healing from now. In a world full of gray skies, we can bring light & healing to at least one kind spirit longing to be accepted; longing to know that they are not alone. That’s my mission. That’s my goal.
 
We are a world family. We don’t have to bully others to make ourselves feel better. We don’t have to suffer through depression, anxiety & trauma alone. We can smile without worrying sometimes. We can help each other heal, day by day. Together, we rise & heal above all of our limiting beliefs. The healing abundance is within us all. Forgive yourself.

Ways to connect with Whitney directly:

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